Call Me Old Fashion

This has been a long time coming.  I have made several attempts and failed...every time.  This time- I am done! 

Technology has made many advances and claims to have made every one's life much easier...right?  I beg to differ.  Somethings may be easier- but overall, in my humble opinion, with the world at my fingertips... at all times....

it sucked me in

I became enslaved

I spent more time reading Facebook than I did reading God's word

I spent more time on my phone than with my husband

I spent more time on my phone than with my children

It was the first thing I grabbed upon awakening to see what may have happened in the few hours I slept

It was what I turned to while stopped at a red light as opposed to turning to my children and asking them about their day


I don't think it is coincidence...

 that a few days ago my "little" dropped my iPhone in a cup of coke

 that the deductible for a replacement phone through Verizon was something we couldn't afford

 that I found a new, basic, "dumbphone" for a very affordable cost on amazon.com

that our cellphone bill will be $30.00 less a month and $360.00 less a year

I don't even believe in coincidences!

I believe in a Sovereign God who loves me and gently teaches, leads, and guides me!

I am neither tooting my own horn nor trying to judge people who may be doing these same things.  I simply am sharing with you my recent conviction.  No phone or piece of technology is more valuable than time spent with our heavenly Father or our loved ones. I challenge you to enjoy life with you head held high not downcast and by the glow of your phone.  I am reminded of a scripture and this I will leave with you..

Matthew 5:30

 And if your right hand causes you to stumble, cut it off and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to go into hell.

'til later,
Leah

Losing Control

Ever just accepted something about yourself and just settled for it thinking ..."that's just the way I am and I can't help it?" Being the youngest of four, I have always felt I had to prove my point, be heard, strive hard to be the best or just better anyway, etc...  It also could have something to do with me being very strong willed. Hmmm?   Alright already! Enough excuses!   Recently I discovered something about myself, a character trait, if you will.    Over the past few weeks I have often thought I was looking into a mirror while watching others lose control, pitch fits, sling things, slam things down, walk very hard and with entirely too much purpose.   I've listened to people and sworn it was me carrying on a conversation with myself as I listened to them speak loud and rude.  

When a revelation occurs that you are lacking in something that is very vital in your Christian walk, it is a very humbling experience.  I have intentionally ,over the last week or so, tried to keep my thoughts to myself and remember that not everyone has to hear my opinion every time.   I am like a water balloon about to explode when I feel the need to pry into a conversation with my two cents worth. 

God has placed me in several circumstances recently that allowed me to see just what I look and sound like sometimes.  Clearly I heard Him say-  Be still, Be quiet!  It matters not what you think on this matter. I am God and you are not.  It matters not what they think your opinion is.  It only matters what My opinion of you is and where your heart is- how you respond!  Wow! As the 2x4 split me wide open- it was a bittersweet moment. 

One afternoon, as my baller was at batting practice, I sat on the grassy lawn with my spread...God, my Bible, pen, paper, a wide open space, and lots of prayer.  I couldn't let this go, so I decided to study up on the matter.    I was brought to

Galatians  5:22-23. 

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,  gentleness and self-control.   

Did you catch the last fruit?  SELF CONTROL.  If the Spirit is in me, I bear His fruit!  I have work to do.  When I became a child of God, I took on His Spirit and it dwells in me.  I think the self control was pushed aside by me, ignored. It never was a character trait yet a Spiritual deficit. Losing control hurts others as well as your Christian walk! 

God help me tame my tongue and may my words and the meditations of my heart be pleasing unto You!

One More Day

Ever had an emotional breakdown?  Of course you have.  If you have lost a parent, you know that these things happen and it doesn't take much for the dam to break.  After dropping my kiddos off at school, I was listening to my favorite Christian radio station and in honor of Mother's Day, they were having listeners call in and share a special memory of their mom.   My mind began to dream of the possibility of having one more day with my mom.

If I had one more day with my mom I would walk the path from my yard to hers (as I did everyday while she was here) and tell her....

Thank you for loving me when I was so hard to love!

Thank you for showing me Christ's love and how to love and serve others!

Thank you for teaching me good work ethics and not to expect everything be handed to me and to work hard!

It's hard to sit back and watch my kids heart break.  Did you cry when I cried?

Marriage is the hardest thing I have ever done but the best thing that has ever happened to me...and
You would be proud of the boy you thought was so goofy- he has grown into a mighty man of God-(but still goofy).

Mama, you spoiled Daddy! I am not responsible for any decisions he makes.  I looked around at a visitation for a friends mom who passed away and he had on a white shirt, (you know his favorite ones with the front left pocket and the elastic waist), and there were food stains/droppings down the front.  Sorry! 

Let me take you to visit all of your grandchildren , they are so beautiful and full of life!


This is a cruel world we live in - I am so glad you don't have to witness it!

Until we meet again...Happy Mother's Day!  I Love You!