As part of my graduate studies in nursing, our class visited the Capitol to mingle and voice our concerns of the laws that make the nurse practitioner role difficult in Georgia. If you know me at all, you know I am nothing near a political woman and I can assure you I was there because it was expected of me to go...for the grade. I remember standing there quietly, dressed professionally, pretending to be important. I knew I would never approach a Congressman and discuss anything. All around me I could here these very political, intellectual sounding conversations. In that moment, I remember feeling unimportant. In that particular instance, for me, I preferred to remain unseen and unheard...invisible. Remaining invisible is never once preference. However, there comes a time when even the quietest of people want to feel seen and heard.
Sometimes, we allow the world to convince us that we are not worthy.
Sometimes, we compare ourselves to others and quickly decide we are invisible and she isn't. We are less, she is more. We are insecure. She is confident. We are wanna be's. She has arrived. The comparison game causes us to do ugly things. We begin to strive to be heard. Then we begin to sulk and just want to throw in the towel. The feeling of being invisible begins to compound.
Sometimes, God reminds us of a recent Bible study we participated in and the scripture leaps out at us. I am reminded that other people don't necessarily speak for God. Because I am not invisible to Him, I can be in a crowded room of important strangers and remember I am seen by the only One who really matters.
Matthew 6:33 "Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."
One of my all time favorites...
2 Timothy 1:7 "For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but of power and of love and of calm and well-balanced mind and discipline and self-control."
Suddenly, I realize God is my El Roi. He sees me. He listens to me. He cares about my feelings. I am important to Him. And for some stinkin' reason, He loves me more than I will ever know.
Seeking Him,
Leah
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